God willing-

a modulus sign (l f(x) l)

in my life

would be nice. =)

and i m off on a paper airplane to find my
lovely cardboard beach paradise.

isnt that the lives we lead?
gradual elaborate sketches on the canvas of life;

then erased.

bwahahahas.

moral of the story:

live life with meaning people! =D

yawns.

blink blinks.

PW: Mission Impossible IV.

i shall like to summon every ounceofenergy i have left.

traipsed around chinatown
and orchard today with my HoGc brethren ^^

brethren=brothers

hehehs oh was quite exciting
crapped and laughed alot abt stuff =)

oh and then
we were offered homemade kueh lapis-

it was good-
but after a few hours i felt like vomiting,
bile sensation and all.

which, strangely reminded me of the last time
i felt like this-
probably five years ago after a mountain climb! ^^

dear Lord

thank you for always being with me

u can make miracles happen in my life

if only i d believe. which needs faith! selfless faith!

thank you for helping me love myself

imperfection and all ^^

good looks dont really matter to me

just want a great heart for You hahahahs ^^

dear friends- just wanna tell you this
even if things dont always seem to go right
and stuff you wanted and hoped for dont come true

all you need is to trust in Him,
a God thats true- He loves you! ^^

no one can stop me =D

had GP mid-years today!

hopefully i didnt mess up- but felt pretty good
afters, so i hope its ll be alright (yeass fingers
crossed man hahahas) ^^

felt so funny doing a near 50 degrees bend for
1 and a 1/2 hours scribbling with a 0.28 blaque-
actually used up three whole sheets of paper
and fifteen minutes writing my intro paragraph!

aughs. nevermind,Godstilllovesme! =D
mucho gracias to marilyn my benefactor (ess!) ^^

and then to orchard with the girls afters! ^^
at 10 am in the morning-
then ate mos. tried to study.
ended up talking ahahahas ^^
and looked at pretty buns.

mm sounded wrong. *censor it from ur innocent
minds people! hahahahhas

as in, baked brioches and those sweet japanese
cakes with CREAM and
STRAWBERRY FILLING. which, would melt any girl's
heart. (or mine at least ^^)

then ate dairy queens! i didnt know they sold soft serve
for 70cts a cone! which is cool- cuz i got a really huge swirl!
think the cashier lady likes me-hahahas! =)
then talked abt passerbys-maymay very funny! (as usual ^^)
love my jess and may mans
hahahhas ^^

mm then went popular! they re having a sale there-
oh yes cuz its GSS season! which means shopping!
(ange! ^^)

or window shopping and good food for me ^^
and now am getting ready to meet my
HoGc mates and go out now! hehehs

happy holidays everyone! ^^

life is getting tough.

i could do two things.

get used to it.

love it.

theres a difference to me. ^^

i want to be a better me.

sure, maybe uncontrollable.

sure, maybe unpredictable.

sure, maybe not as good as others.

hahahas!

but still to be a better, God-loving me.

God i love You. ^^

imperfect faith.

thats the problem.

most people spend their lives thinking

that they re in control.

i guess you could say i was one of them.

but guess what?

there is a God who loves,

and He s given my life

a brand-new purpose.

thank You Lord. ^^

this is badd.
i m locked out of my room! and everythings inside!
which means-
i cant go out. the keys in my bag.
i cant open the door for a locksmith!
i cant pay him- my wallets'-!
i cant study (now should i laugh or cry)
i cant do anything about it- my mum doesnt reply
her phone when shes at work!
and my sisters will be home late on fridays!
hurrumph.

at least my bible's outside. ^^
am inspired by my friend rachel to trust in God completely.
will proceed to bake something
if its pizza- its for dinner
if its bread its for breakfast ( i have an excuse! ^^ )
and while waiting for the microorganism yeast to rise-
i ll read my bible! ^^

God must have planned this. ^^ am happy!


oh and i stepped out of comfort zone today; climbed
twenty three flights of stairs without stopping once!
hohos and i had all these funny revelations, like

even if the entire stairways cluttered, push on; never
give up on God.

or

it looks normal now; but tts always the danger point-
you d want to stop, and you d lose your momentum!

cool huh! ^^
well, and
this ought to stop my muscles from turning into fats
for a while. =)

Hebrews 11:1. ^^

how many of you know that all those in a race
will run, but only one receives the prize?

for they seek a perishable crown, but we seek
an imperishable crown.

i have a new motto! ^^
and in true cliche form, have translated it into latin-
so here it is:

quis have ego vereor?

which basically means:

what have i to fear?

mmm-
have been using it quite often of late, from the slightest
insignificant details to philosophical proportions.

interests./ ihavegottogetnewhobbiesmann.
note to self: i will not fuss over
custard that will not congeal, nor bake cookies tt
were meant to be PIE CRUST.
(though they tasted really good all buttery and crumbly)
nor tire myself trying to scrape stubborn layers
carcinogenic from being burnt blaque from metal trays.

yes people, vioL is going to have a new interest!~

dear Lord
please bake me a special pie of your sweet presence-
i d share! (really) ^^

and for people who ve wont try it-
so i can throw it in their face.

i need my strawberry mosquito repellent.

composed these lyrics a while back;
-i believe in You.

i believe in miracles Lord
i believe in You
i believe in a world
where hopes and dreams come true.

i believe in your love Lord
a love so deep and pure
a love that binds forever
a love so deep and sure;

i believe in hope Lord
a faith that moves the mountains
a strength that i could carry
that overcomes all burdens;

i believe in wisdom Lord
Your thoughts i d never fathom
a knowledge overwhelming
shine through darkness like a lantern;

i believe in me now Lord,
cuz i believe in You. ^^

Pastor Kong is so cool! ^^
i m gonna be a conversionist, and change the
world!
todays sermon really woke me up to my
small minded thinking-
and also how i ve forgotten my favourite line-
With God, All Things Are Possible!

speaking of which- i would need a miracle now.
six hours of sleep.
thats the max i ve been able to get this week =)
plus the latest i ve reached home?
around 11pm for the past two days.
earliest? 6pm!
truely, acceleration is key. ^^

although, i love my life manns.
been able to feel the presence of God lately-
and it feels good! (badabadabadabum)
hahahahahahs
i suppose i should be grumbling tt i ve become
so tired lately, my eyes feel like they re burning
when i close them during lectures/tutorials

but no-
i love my life!
i love people!
i love God!
i love the way i can use my God-given brains to plot
the super flexible quartic inequalities graph using
GC and dy/dx, esp since i have a OBT test tom, and i
love the way i have absolute confidence in myself
to score in it!

anomalous results: none. trends were expected!
conlcusion: vioL loves to love! ^^

the virulent bacterium of sore throat strikes.
my throat hurtss
still- i am determined not to let that affect my
melodious voice! hahahahs =)
God is amazing- this is the first time i ve fallen sick
since the start of the year!

GOD is Amazing.
God IS amazing
God is AMAZING.

hahahahs may my prayers be
as strong as curses.
as miraculous as blessings.
as powerful as love.
as binding as vows.
as faith-filled as can be.

watch out, i m praying for you! ^^

hahahahs
an actual phenomenon happened on the
fourth of may, around eleven pm
on singapore earth today-

vioL finally made her appearance felt online.
and it felt goood. ^^

hahahahas twelve window requests for msn from
dear friends culminating and still counting-!

meanwhile in reality; she slacks around eating
lime-flavoured ice cream in a cone
while printing PW references. =)

gluttony is one of the seven deadly sins.
o manns-
guilty! hahahahahs

had apples and mangoes before my ice cream! 0.o
and before that, wasting time writing lyrics again;

i woke up one day
and saw an angel by my bed
rise up, my child;
make haste, he said.

time is running out
for tragedy will strike
deliver the tribesmen from the ambush
at the stroke of midnight.

i rallied my people
a plea from a child s cry
but one one belived me
and by their ignorance they died.

i saw how they did it
saw how they pillaged killed and plunder
saw how they razed the village to the grounds
to charred wood and splinter.

if only they ever knew or saw
a hidden child's heart wrenched
they might have prevented the day

that young boy took

revenge.


butrevengeisverybadforthesoulyouknow ^^
muahahas

had a thoroughly wretched day.

even wrote a poem about it on my
way home hahahas-

tried to hold a prayer meeting today
but my hopes came to naught
had an important chem test today
and with fear my nerves were fraught-

i dashed to and fro as PW rep
disillusioned; and with no control-
over the the state of my classmates PI
or the horrors PE would hold
(why i d never stop in my 14 rounds of running
i guess no one would really know)

i imagined a world around me
where people despised my every act-
i felt forced to live a life i didnt believe,
a hypocrite, a wreck.

i longed for Your voice today Lord
to soothe with every word.
but all i heard was
the disappointment in my seniors
treating our efforts as dirt-
( i know they love us Lord but
it just seems so hard
how a seemingly ordinary day
could be ruined right from the start)

Lord i m sick of feeling like this
i need your warm embrace so-
to guide and to comfort me
please help this pathetic soul.

all in the short span of a ten minute bus ride.

on a lighter note:
guess what- there are now THREE PW reps
in my CCA ( plus me!)
and even funnier- we all came from the same
class for first three months! ^^
CCA was special today
and GOD thank you for my friends in school
dont know how much i owe them for always
being there, to crap and laugh with

im feeling goood.

time spent with my dear HoGc brethren
today sorta felt like the swensens
tower cookie chocolatte sundae i had from
*winks
my dear generous friend ^^

layers and layers of gooey sweetness
with blocks of caramelized surprises
in random bites.
and topped with thick whipped cream,
with a special chocolate-dipped cherry
on top. =)

or like the swensens fries!
you ve just got to have more of it.

hahahahs
end world hunger,
and spiritual starvation!